WHEN I COME INTO THIS WAY

IM STILL STANDING HERE,, IN A ROOM THAT FULL OF MY BELONGING THINGS.
IM LOOKING SURROUND ME,, ITS FEEL SO HARD TO KEEP THEM ALL INTO MY LUGGAGE. IM TRYING MY HARD TO MAKE THEM ENJOY THE PLACE A GAVE THEM INTO MY LUGGAGE. BUT THEY TRYING THEIR BEST TO ESCAPING THEIR SELF FROM IT. MY LUGGAGE SCREAMING,, HE CANT STAND ANYMORE WITH ALL THE THING I PUT INSIDE.

I HOLD MY BREATH. TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO BRING THEM ALL WITH ME.
I ONLY HAVE 2 HANDS, 2 FOOTS, AND A BRAIN TO THINK SMART HOW TO BRING THEM. IM CONFUSED. I MESSING UP MY HAIR AND SCRATH IT. "AHA!"
FINALY, I SAT UPSIDE MY LUGGAGE, I JUMPED, AND I TRYING TO CLOSE IT.
AND... I SREAMED,, "YEA!!!" WITHOUT ANY REBELION, THEY ALL LOCKED INSIDE MY "Mr. LuGGAGE". IM SMILING,, I WAS SWEATING,, I TOOK MY TOWEL AND I CLEANING MY FACE FROM THE SWEAT THAT HURTing MY EYES.

"PPFFFUUIIIHH..." FINALY I FINISHED ALL THIS SHIT. IM LOOKING AROUND,,SUDDENLY I FEEL SO HARD TO LEAVE THIS PLACE. I SAT ON MY BED. I TOUCH THE BEDCOVER SADLY. I TOUCH MY CAMERA. MY CAMERA THAT I BOUGHT IN HERE, THE CAMERA THAT MADE ALL OF MY NICE MEMORY AS LONG AS IM HERE. I SAW ALL THE PICTURES INSIDE. I FEEL WANNA CRY, I FEEL SAD, I FEEL DISSAPOINTED, I FEEL ALONE...

EVEN I MISs HOME BADLY,, EVEN I REALLY WANNA MEET MY FAMILY SOON & HUG THEM,, BUT STILL.. ITS NOT EASY TO LEAVE THIS PLACE,, LEAVE A PLACE THAT TOUGHT ME SO MANY THINGS... SO MANY THINGS THAT CHANGE MY MIND,, SO MANY THINGS THAT MADE ME FEEL THIS WAY,, SO MANY THINGS...
IM SO AFRAID TO LEAVE... MAYBE IM AFRAID IF SOMEDAY I CANT BACK HERE AS I WAS PLANNING BEFORE OR MAYBE IM AFRAID IF I BACK HOME NOW,,
EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE BEFORE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME...
IM AFRAID OF CHANGING,, IM AFRAID TO FACE THE RISK IT MIGHT BE...
IM AFRAID... IF I CANT HAVE WHAT I WANT...
IM AFRAID... SO I JUST WANTING WHAT I HAVE...


I IMAGINE IM TAKING A WALK IN THE BEACH WITH THE FOOT NAKED
AND THE SUMMER BREEZE PLAYING MY HAIR...
IM RUNNING AFTER THE WAVE,, IM BREATHING EASILY...
IM RUNNING,, RUNNING UNTIL THE WATER TOUCH MY LEG...
IM TRYING TO CATCH THE SUNSET...
FINALY I SWIM WITH THE FISH,
IM DANCING WITH THE WAVE,, IM SINGING WITH THE WIND...
WHEN THE CLOUD SMILING AND COVERING THE SUN,,
UNTIL THE PRINCESS OF THE NIGHT COME,,
SHE SMILING AT ME,, SHE INVITED ME TO DANCE WITH THE STARS,
TO SING WITH THE MELODY,
WHEN THEY SHINING UP HIGH LIKE A DIAMOND IN THE SKY
I TAKE A DEEP BREATH,, I OPEN MY ARMS,, I CLOSED MY EYES,,
AND I SINGING... SINGING IN THE NAME OF MY LORD,
SINGING FOR ALL THE THINGS I HAD IN THIS LIFE,,,

SUDDENLY I FELT COLD. I WALK BACK AND LYING IN THE SANDS,,
IM WATCHING THE STARS WHILE THEY DANCING..
I TRIED TO TOUCH THEM,, BUT THEY SEEMS TOO FAR AWAY...
BUT THEIR LIGHT GET INTO MY HEART,,
THEY SHINING IT,, TRYING TO MAKE IT WARM...

SUDDENLY I HEAR A SOUND CALLING OUT MY NAME AND I BACK TO REALITY. IM STILL IN MY ROOM. STILL TRYING TO IMAGINE HOW TO BRING THEM ALL IN MY HANDS...
AND,, FINALLY I THROW AWAY SOME OF MY WINTERS CLOTHES, NOT THROWING THEM AWAY - BUT GIVE THEM TO EVERYONE WHO NEED IT. AND I SMILED,, WELL,, 2 BAGS LEFT. - WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH THEM???

I FEEL UPSET,, AND I SENT EMAIL TO MY SISTER. DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO,,
IN FACT IM NOT YET KEEP MY LAPTOP INSIDE MY RANSEL BAG.
I FEEL ANGRY. I FEEL SAD,, I FEEL UPSET AGAIN.
AND FINALY I DECIDED TO PRINT MY ELECTRONIC TICKET.
IM SMILING, A SAD SMILE, AN HAPPY SMILE...
BUT STILL FEEL HESITATE INSIDE,,
HESITATE ABOUT MY NEXT STEP,,
INSECURE ABOUT THE THING I'LL DO LATER
IM LOOKING INTO THE CEILING,, I TAKE MY PRAY,,
I WISH EVERYTHING THAT I DO IS IN THE RIGHT WAY...
I HOPE THIS WAY WILL BRING ME TO THE RIGHT PATH...

FOR ALL THE THINGS I'VE BEEN DOING IN HERE,,
FOR ALL THE DREAMS I MADE FOR...
FOR ALL THE HOPE I KEEP INSIDE...
FOR ALL THE WILL I ALWAYS HAVE...